When I was 15 I specifically said to myself “Taylor Swift’s song ‘Fifteen’ totally doesn’t apply to my life”

Lo and behold that song describes my life as a 15 year old

I’ve actually accomplished a lot in the past few days although it doesn’t seem like it because I haven’t gotten around to cleaning my room. Honestly, I’m one of those people that are constantly moving and doing something and while that’s good I think I need to take a bit to chill (which is hopefully what I’ll do next week at the prom ~mansion~)
Anyways today I managed to go to the bank, buy some necessary articles of clothing for Europe (I’m leaving in two weeks holy shit) eat Chipotle, get my workout in AND do yoga and I still managed to have time to watch That 70’s Show.
The one thing weighing on my mind is my graduation speech. I know what I want to say it but I’m having trouble phrasing it. I just have to breathe is all. I know I have it in me!
Anyways, I think taking a moment to reflect on all of the positive things I have accomplished today is a much better way to end my day than dwelling on what’s not done yet. Honestly, there will always be things to do. You just gotta have a positive attitude and enjoy it!

Nowadays I’d rather buy a bigger size in pants and have some wiggle room instead of buying the smallest size I can squeeze myself into.

My first two days of summer have been a success. In the time span I have been able to:

• Get a haircut
• Buy myself some new makeup and clothes from Target
• Drink iced coffee
• Get dressed up
• Go to Applebee’s
• Go to the beach
• Drink Tropical Smoothie
• LIFT AW YEAH
• Do yoga
• Watch ~14 episodes of That 70’s show

So basically:

• I’ve got good vibes about this summer. I can tel it’s just going to be a fun time out and about chillin’ with my peeps
• I’m actually pretty emotional about high school ending and have been drowning my emotions via watching That 70’s Show (fun fact: I’m related to the guy that plays Hyde). I feel really emotional about the characters and their situations and I know that I don’t want to feel my emotions so I’m projecting them onto a TV show womp
• I AM GOING TO GET BACK INTO YOGA THIS SUMMER. I’ve been pretty good about it so far, although I know I’ll pretty much fall out of it when I’m at the prom house/in Europe but I can always pick it up when I come back :)
• I am putting off writing my graduation speech, although I know what I’m writing about I just don’t have the exact words yet. I think I’m going to sit down tonight after doing some deads and then some yoga to release my stress and then calm me down and just type until my fingers fall off. This will be a fantastic speech goddamit. 
• I have a lot of stuff to get done but I haven’t done any of it the last two days because my mind can’t function after a whole year of school. However, I think I’ll try getting my act together tomorrow. 
• This idea occured to me at the beach that would make a really cool post but I know it will end up being procrastination for deadlifting or speech writing but I really want to write it gahhh conflicted

And that is your update of the day

Which hopefully means that this is the last day that I ever have to exercise at 8 pm (I took a nap after school whoops)

Night exercise is totally not my thing. Also exercising in the morning gives me motivation to keep a somewhat normal sleep schedule instead of sleeping in until noon everyday.

Tomorrow is my last day of classes (which I feel is so much later than everyone else). Our last day was supposed to be Thursday (which was our senior BBQ) but they added two more class days for everyone to take these new summative tests. But this means that tomorrow as soon as 2;05 hits I’m done with high school! The only events left being prom and graduation!!

I wanted to make a post laying out my summer plans and goals to compare with at the end of my summer.

Firstly, here’s “the plan:”

• Next week is prom house mansion. Don’t ask me how they did it but my friends booked us a mansion to stay in. Prom is that Wednesday and graduation that Saturday.
• June 26th I leave for Europe for 12 days
• Chill until August 21st when I leave for school

Next, I have some goals. I’m breaking them down by time frame.

This week

• Make sure that everything is in order for Europe i.e purchase travel items and clothes
• Drink even more water than usual to keep everything nice & hydrated for prom AND to just drink more water because that’s always a good thing to do.
• Write my graduation speech
• I’m going to increase the frequency of my workouts because I’ll be traveling for so long. I know I’ll probably end up having to repeat a cycle of 5/3/1 but I want to keep up my lifts as much as I possibly can. Also add in some extra conditioning. 

Europe

• Fully enjoy the experience
• Disconnect from technology; I’m not taking my phone with me and probably won’t have internet access for the duration of the trip.
• I’m going to Europe OMG

Summer in general 

• Get everything in order for school. Priority numero uno.
• Make a habit of doing yoga. I just did some for the first time in a while today and it was so great.
• Keep up with my lifts
• Go to the beach a lot
• Treasure every moment spent with my friends and my family
• Do a complete organization of my room (including all drawers and deep dark places)
• RELAX

Last year, I kept getting these reoccurring stomach pains that felt like someone was stabbing me with a knife. I went to the doctor and got tested for an ulcer and for allergies, but the only thing that showed up was a slight allergy to soy and rice (both of which I don’t each much of to begin with so it wasn’t the problem). However, the pains went away when I stopped eating my whole wheat tortilla wraps for lunch everyday.  I got similar pains after eating eggs, and I stopped eating those too (which sucks because of all dat protein I’m missing out on). I’m not allergic to these foods but for whatever reason they give me let-me-just-curl-up-in-a-ball-and-die stomach pains. I haven’t had a problem in months though.

So I went to my schools athletic dinner last night and about halfway through the dinner the pains return, and with a vengeance.  They’ve never been that bad.  I had to leave the dinner early and then I came home and curled up into a ball.  Usually the pains go away but I literally had pain up until the this morning in school. I kept waking up from the pain and it was just awful.  I’ve never experienced anything like it.

I don’t know what set it off, if I’m allergic or sensitive to any kinds of food or if something just gave me gas (like gas bubbles in my stomach…I think that;s what was causing the pain but this isn’t a very precise or science-y answer haha). I’ve been feeling very bloaty and blah today and I’ve been grazing with snacks instead of eating real meals so my whole body just feels off. 

On a completely unrelated note my room is getting to be a mess and I need to clean it because I kept it clean for a good 9 months and it can’t get messy again now wahhh.

It’s a school tradition that on the last day of classes all of the seniors dress up in colors according to their elementary school and we spend the day out on their field playing games and signing yearbooks. It was a ton of fun!

Senior activities means that lots of people take pictures. I just uploaded my pictures on Facebook and my mom told me “Wow, I just saw that pictures you uploaded. You can definitely ell you’re in shape.  The lifting makes everything look noticeable, in a good way.” 

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I much prefer to work out in the morning. My energy level is significantly higher and I have more motivation. With this being the last week of school, my body is literally drained of all energy. The building is hot and my mind is bored all day because I’m not doing anything in class. I haven’t been sleeping well because I half don’t care (whoops) and the other half gets emotional/anxious about graduating at night. All of this leads to me being exhausted at any and all points from getting home from school to going to bed. I don’t know where my energy is.

I’ve been keeping up with my workouts and doing my lifts but I know that it’s a little half hearted. I get everything done for my main lift but when it comes to accessory I don’t push myself as hard as I could and sometimes I just skip things. Sometimes I wonder if I lose motivation because I’m in my own home and I can’t properly separate my mind from it’s laziness, and that I can just call it a day and walk upstairs and go to bed.

Mostly everything is done for me this year. All of my textbooks have been returned, most of my classes are done and I only have 2-3 finals left to take. The big thing weighing down on my shoulders is writing my two speeches - one for the middle school graduation this Friday and one for my own high school graduation at the end of June. It is an immense honor and I’m so grateful to have the opportunity but the pressure of writing them is dragging me down because my mind is expired from all of my other classes. Oh well, I know it will get done. Working out at home doesn’t always allow me to escape the pressures and stresses that I feel which is why I end up discouraged when I have a lot on my plate. Today I’m wishing more than anything to just get out of my house to exercise to just forget about it all.

In conclusion, I’m feeling pretty blah today.

Today’s workout was so-so.  I’m so exhausted from my cousin’s wedding yesterday (let’s just say my family knows how to party) so I cut it short.  IT got me thinking about the things that are good and bad about having a squat rack in my own basement.

Advantages:

• My travel time is about .2 seconds. I don’t have to drive anywhere and I just walk downstairs.
• Save on gym membership money and gas money.
• I don’t have to deal with strangers in the gym, waiting for the squat rack etc
• I can blast my music.

Disadvantages

• Sometimes getting out of the house is nice.
• Sometimes I don’t try as hard (mostly when I’m not feeling too well) because my bed is like .5 seconds away.
• Sometimes my parents come downstairs and bother me
• The social aspect of the gym is gone.
• I don’t have every piece of eqipment like a gym could have. 

So there’s good stuff and bad stuff. Mostly good! Sometimes it’s annoying but I know I’ll have a good mix because I’ll be back and forth between the school gym(s) and home.

The good:

• I had my first (and last) memorial day parade marching with my kickline team. Even though I’ve only been on the team for one year, I love being able to come to 8th period and dance and perform with all of my friends <3
• I got to sing the National Anthem at the ceremony at the end of the parade!
• The weather was nice and I hung out with a few of my friends. We laid out in the sun, felt the rays on our skin and soaked up that good ole vitamin D. I was once again reminded how much I love my friends and how much I’m going to miss them despite how busy I’ll be with college life.
• I’m chipping away at all of my final projects. Mentally, I checked out after AP exams but I need to just make it through these last few assignments. 
• I wore my Red Hair, Don’t Care shirt.
• Any day that I listen to Blurred Lines by Robin Thicke is a good day.

The bad:

• I AM SO SUNBURNT. It comes with the ginger territory I suppose. When I laid out I put on my SPF 15 like a good little ginger but I forgot to wear sunscreen marching in the parade. Whoops.
• Since today was the first day of the year that I’ve been in the sun for a long period of time, I’m physically exhausted. My bench workout was fine but I skipped my last accessory exercise and I totally skipped out on conditioning. I started worrying about my busy schedule and this is the only time I have, but I stopped myself. My conditioning work wouldn’t have gone well if I had attempted it because I’m so shot. There’s always tomorrow :)

Hi guys sorry I haven’t really been posting much about fitness lately but my life is all over the place right now! I kind of enjoy my random all over the place updates - they’re a snapshot of my kind at the moment and an overview of what’s going on in my life. Fitness is obviously an important component but that’s not all there is! I want my blog to be me - not just fitness me!

In about a month, I’ll be leaving for vacation! I’m going to a prom house with my friends for 5 days, coming home for graduation and then leaving for Europe for 12! I’m so excited you have no idea. The trip is through the school so I get to explore the other side of the world with all of my friends :) I have a queue set up with a good mix of funny stuff and fitness stuff and funny fitness stuff (my personal favorite). However, I probably won’t have access to a computer so don’t expect many personal posts while I’m gone (in Europe)!

Once I get home I have about a month and then college starts. It’s becoming real. HOW.

The reason I’m posting this picture is because in Europe you need appropriate length clothing to your most churches, meaning knee length skirts and shorts, both of which I don’t own. I bought this dress for the trip because it’s breezy when it’s hot out, I can just throw a shawl over my shoulders and it’s cute. It also was the perfect length which made my 5ft self EXTREMELY happy.

And for the fitness part of this post - check out dat shoulder action. My lifting has been paying off yay :3

Every year my township puts together an awards show for all of the high school productions in the town and I got nominated for best supporting actress!!! (I was Penny in Hairspray) I am so psyched, just being nominated feels awesome!

Gizoogle makes everything better

I thought today was really unproductive because my room is still a mess and I haven’t studied for my AP exams.

BUT. I did apply got a ton of scholarships and I worked so I guess it wasn’t all too bad in terms of productivity.

I would just very much like for school to be over. Thanks.