Dinner at Rosie O’Grady’s Steak & Seafood after the show!! Grilled Jumbo Shrimp and Sea Scallop Risotto, a Cappuccino and Chocolate Raspberry cake!! So delicious!

Treated myself for breakfast this morning!! So good. So worth the overpriced cost.

Double the pork chops. Double the protein. Double the fun.

Chicken that has been marinated in teriyaki sauce overnight with some pineapple and other stuff that I don’t know because my mom cooked it. I’m so hungry after working that I couldn’t be bothered putting it on a plate #hostessproblems

SCRUMPTIOUS

I would have them with lunch every day last spring and I would get the worst stomach aches, the lie on the couch and die kind. I went for allergy testing and nothing came up, and I eat all other sorts of other bread products and I’m completely fine. Eventually I stopped eating them and the stomach aches went away, and I figured out that the wraps were what killed my stomach in retrospect. 

I went to the deli up the road from the school for lunch today and I got a grilled chicken, roasted pepper, and melted mozzarella on a whole wheat. It was all good and dandy, and quite delicious, until an hour later when I got a stomach ache (it wasn’t as bad as it’s been in the past though). WHOLE WHEAT WRAPS WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME?!

I gave the full fat diet a try. I’ve liked it thus far, besides the difficulties because I’m not the primary cook/food shopper in the house. I’d still consider myself in transition to this new way of eating because I most definitely did not have everything figured out. I was starting to feel leaner and I felt like it was finally something that was working for me.

The bane of my existence is packing lunch for school. It’s so difficult to find things that hold up throughout my 13 hr days. I’ve been struggling to eat enough in school and ravenous when I got home. I liked the way that eating full fat made me feel, but just because I’m new at it and I’m pulling such long days it wasn’t working because I haven’t figured out just exactly how to eat. Like anything new, it’s a process, and with that one that I don’t have the time for.

Starting this week, I have night time rehearsals for the show. I won’t be home from 7am until 8 pm, with a 40 minute lunch period and a half hr dinner break. I’m loosing up on my diet and workouts. I literally do not have the time to worry otherwise. If I start to get a bit squishy - oh well. I’ll still try to eat healthy, but my options are limited and I just want to survive the next month without having to worry about eating.

I will however probably return to the full fat lifestyle one day because I like my meats and veggies and oils and PEANUT BUTTER.

Okay that’s it.

Fun story. Today I was trying on a dress for my costume that the costume director found at some estate sale (it was a little moldy smelling) and I tried it on and it was awesome. As I pulled it over my head, the zipper busted and now the whole dress is ruined because zippers were crappy back in the day. I felt like such a bad person. 

It’s incredibly easy to eat out. I ordered a big juicy bacon cheeseburger, and then just ate it without the bun. Yummy meal, no dietary hassles. It’s a win-win.

I am home from work and now it is time to FEAST

And so my biology textbook has enlightend me on the most complex details.of why fat is so efficient for energy. It all makes so much sense to me now. I LOVE SCIENCE

Props to whoever invented these

I get really sad about eggs sometimes. Me & eggs went through a rough break up a few months ago (read this post if you want to know what I’m talking about). I tried to eat one the other day and all of the emotions came rushing back.

I started stressing out about the whole high fat food options that I have to bring to school with me because my mom doesn’t go food shopping until Tuesday and I’m starting to run out. It just irritates me because whatever I choose to bring to school it’s so hard to find something that actually satisfies me, no matter what style of eating I choose. Then I started to think more about it and I realized I’m no so stressed out about the food choices per se, but rather about the amount of work that I have to do. I’ve literally printed at least 50 pages worth of work for my economics class, accumulating in a mock job interview tomorrow. On top of that, I have work for my other AP classes that I’m falling behind on because of my econ class (a half year elective course necessary to graduate). We’re just finishing one project and now we’re moving on to another one. It needs to be midterm week already so that I can finish the class and not have to worry about the enormous amounts of work. After school, I have play rehearsals and then work on Mondays & Fridays. Most days I’m not home from 7 am-5:30 pm. They’re such long days, which is why I get so stressed about what I’m bringing to school and whether it’s enough. So for the tomorrow:

Breakfast:

Protein Shake - 1 cup Coconut milk, 1 scoop protein powder, as much PB I can fit on a spoon 

Lunch:

Salad with Buffalo Blue Cheese Dressing. SO GOOD. Then I’m going to pack some nuts and Roast Beef coldcuts and whatever cheese we have left and hoping that that will sustain me until 8 when I get home from work :/ Possibly a spoonful of PB in the brief 5 minutes I’m home between rehearsal and work.

Dinner:

Whatever my mom makes. I’m urging her to buy more meats and fatty things so I can eat that. I’ll also be making my olive oil broccoli a lot because YUM.

I’ve eaten a lot of carbby thing today. I actually don’t feel as bloated as I usually would if I wasn’t doing this high fat thing. 

I am just so frustrated with life because I want to find something that fits and is easy for me but it’s like everything I do doesn’t work. But I also feel like I’m projecting my school anxiety on to my food choices which should stop because I’m actually doing pretty well with this whole high fat thing especially in terms of my school lunches because I feel more satisfied with my brown bag stuff then I have been in the past.

Okay I just completely changed thoughts so here’s a read more to spare you all.

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I’m starting to feel leaner, I’m getting used to the types of foods that I’m eating and I’m less bloated all around. Plus, we’re eating a roast chicken tonight and I can eat the skin hehe :3